~May Your Light Shine :D~

Monday, October 26, 2009

If ever I need to smack myself out of complacency for sitting at home looking @ my bible and wondering if I should slowly take my time going about this "Christian thing" ( Typing this christian thing today still makes me feel like huh?I am associated with this christian identity?U'll know why soon...). OK,pardon me for concocting a sentence too long and broken as well but if ever i need to do that, I would just have to look thru' the encouragement cards that people have written to me over the years. Its really massively plenty as its like 7 years worth of them?(OMG I am gg to be a dinosaur soon!!!)

Some interesting observations I made and reminders:

(1) All my shepherds/leaders have written to me,even people who are remotely far and no link to me have also written as well SAVE FOR one particular leader and shepherd! Guess who hahaha,its really quite obvious.

(2) I used to subscribe to the thinking that encouargement and affirmation is redundant. I even wrote on Daniel's birthday banner: Serve God don't need affirmation de. I will win the NS camps for you. Just say it and do it. How wrong I was hahaha not as in I didnt do it but encouragements and affirmations are important as well!

(3) It really has not been easy weathering through all the storms in those life. From PO to pioneering schools to defying my parents to enter SR to attempting to leave behind a CG in SR to surviving NS to struggling to get pple respond to my challenges haha to struggling to lead a Cg to struggling to leading a unit to struggling to overcome certain major blocks in my character to now struggling with nus and many other stuffs haha, its really has not been easy. While I am sitting on my chair now, being in a state where perhaps alot of these events don't bear as much emotional responses to me anymore, i cannot be allowed to be deluded by the status of "having overcome" to be cold towards the grace and love that has sustained me through all these.

(4) In reflections, I can safely and surely thank God for how my life has been changed. There were certain motives that weren't right in current realisation of they mean. There were certain motivations that if my current me meets the past me, I would want to give him a 24 hr shepherding about.

(5) There are certain traits of me that are defining of me. A common phrase in all these encouragement cards is "passionate,always giving his all to God and his people". While I have grow much in wisdom and understanding to not be a persistent mad bull rushing in ministry, I would really want to keep this spirit of giving my all. I would still want to chiong like mad when its God's timing to.

JunLiang blogged at 11:25 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...